Just downloaded the blogger app on my nexus tablet! It's nice not having the cumbersome laptop sitting near me radiating heat in mass proportions I swear it's a space heater and laptop all in one! So I am beyond frustrated with myself because I really do want to go vegan but it is very tough when you have a husband and child who fight you every step of the way. I thought of maybe trying the juicing and the raw foods diet. I honestly felt so much better when I didn't eat any animal protein. Not to mention I didn't get enough sleep last night because I stayed up late reading last night (my fault entirely). After that I finally fell asleep and felt like I slept for two hours my alarm went off I hit snooze until 7 so I missed out on my workout this morning furthering my sour mood. But I thank god that I am alive and breathing today I have food in my belly and a roof over my head. My child is healthy and happy and that is all that truly matters. I just have to remind myself every once in a while that it isn't that bad.
We are such a self centered nation I'm just as guilty of it as the next person but I'm honestly trying to be a more godly woman and constantly looking for new ways to fine tune myself to gods teachings. That is what matters in the end god doesn't want me or anyone else to be 100% perfect all of the time he knows that isn't a possibility. He just doesn't want you to ever give up! Never stop seeking never stop loving never stop forgiving never stop renewing your mind and body in him. God needs us to be warriors we have to be strong as moms as wives as sisters in a much larger picture than we can imagine. Let us start simply by mastering at what god has already given us then slowly work our way up. We must master ourselves and be connected with god before we can truly help others. There is a christian song I can't remember what it's called but I remember the lyrics explain that perfectly "when they look at me I hope they see you".
Maybe I have a skewed vision of what I think god is calling me to do. But until god tells me otherwise I'm going to continue on the path that I am on. God is calling us Christians to stand apart from the world there is no disputing that at all! But it means something different to each individual person. For me its controlling what my mind and body are exposed to on a daily basis. The devil lurks everywhere in fiction books, music, television, and other media. Maybe I'm just more sensitive to it now but have you seen what's in the media? People including my husband on numerous occasions have told me I'm being extreme. I said no what's extreme is seeing what desensitized people are capable of. If I didn't play my k-love during the day doing my routine I probably wouldn't be able to say hey I do everything I do for god. I'd say I do everything I do for my husband or child or myself. If I listen to filth my perception of reality is off center. I don't care if people call me "extreme or odd" I believe in my heart that I'm at the beginning of a never ending journey to ultimately be with god. Honestly think of it this way the small things you give up are nothing compared to the end result god is proud of you! Who doesn't want that kind of fulfilling feeling in their lives? We are looking for approval and trying to find our worth in all the wrong things.
To sum it up I think that god wants me to in a sense be an example to others. To selflessly give myself up to be used by god whether that be through cooking and cleaning in my own home or serving my husband or something else entirely. Most women will read this and go no she didn't just say that but yes I did say that! Women were created to be help-mates. That means we are like the supports of the bridge our job is just as important because we nurture support comfort and provide a safe environment for our families to prosper. Without the supports of the bridge the bridge would either be extremely unstable or cease to stand all together. But again who knows maybe it's just my pride talking. I know my place what's yours?
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Tarynn Wahl
Tarynn Wahl
Products I love today
Lentils
Whole wheat English muffins
Lentils
Whole wheat English muffins
Taryn, I just noticed you write a blog. I really like reading your thoughts about wanting to be a more godly woman. I think your goals are awesome and in our family we're trying to make healthier changes. We're also striving to be more Christ-like by "looking outward and not inward" as Christ does in so many occasions, your comment of us people being self centered made me want to share you this goal of ours :) I also agree about how desensitized we've become as a people, it is truly sad. But I totally agree that we need to stand up against such filth and be a light and example of what god wants us to be!
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